An imperfect moment

An imperfect moment

You may read my blog (or you may not) and it could appear like life (and running) is easy. 

A SNAPSHOT… 

This year I’ve run Two Bays 56km, Wangaratta marathon, Brimbank 50km, Princess Park 50km, Great Ocean Road 60km, Surfcoast trail marathon and a few others. And in the last 12 months, I’ve covered over 3,000km. I’m not the fastest and I don’t run the furthest but running is obviously a big part of my life. I’m a wife, mum, daughter, sister and friend. I have two boys (8 and 10 years old) and I work as a PT and running coach. I post on social media… mostly my successes, my beautiful boys and loving husband.

A CLOSER LOOK… 

This year I’ve been careful to monitor my thyroid function, iron levels (and other nutrients), hormones and more. I’ve discovered a running sweet spot of 60km per week (and tried to cap it). I’ve had regular Chiropractic adjustments to help my body function more efficiently (and improve minor structural and functional problems with my spine, pelvis, hips and foot). I’ve maintained Myotherapy treatments for musculoskeletal issues. I’ve seen a Kinesiologist to balance mind, body and spirit. And a Naturopath to navigate through my specific nutritional needs. And what I don’t post on social media… I’m dealing with normal issues like marriage, money, work etc. Plus our eldest son has always been a handful (behaviourally). And I often feel lost (emotionally and spiritually).

Running (and sometimes life in general) does not come easy. And although I’m sure most of you relate, our challenges are not often discussed. Why is that? For me, I dislike being judged. But I like discussing all things mind, body and soul. If you’re like me, please keep reading and discuss. If you’re not interested (stop reading now).

HIPS

Majority of readers know that I had a hip operation in 2015 - I was diagnosed with a Femoroacetabular Impingement (FAI) and Labral tear of my left hip back in 2012. It was largely due to a structural defect (exacerbated by a history of gymnastics, big babies, abdominal separation, lack of strength and poor technique when running). I worked with a running coach on technique (cadence, foot-strike and posture). And physiotherapists and chiropractors to alleviate some of the symptoms. Eventually (after new injuries occurred, related to the hip problem), I opted for surgery. My left hip is much easier to manage now. However I believe my right hip is displaying the same problems. I’m currently seeing a musculoskeletal therapist for new hip/knee pain on my right side. 

MIND AND BODY

I’ve mentioned health issues in previous posts; thyroid, hormones, digestion, vitamin and mineral deficiencies, depression etc. 

In 2014, I had an endometrial ablation for recurring uterine polyps (had 3 polypectomies) and I have polycystic ovaries and adenomyosis. I continued running despite physical pain because it saved me emotionally and mentally.

At the end of 2014 (training for my first ultra) I hit rock bottom. My thyroid and adrenals crashed. I struggled to get out of bed in the morning (I often drove my kids to school in my PJs). My vitamin and mineral deficiencies worsened (had iron infusion and other injections). I was diagnosed with Hashimotos (autoimmune hypothyroidism). And MTHFR gene defect. 

Although knowing what’s wrong can be helpful, sometimes all these “issues” can be OTT… I believe if I look after my body and mind, the rest will take care of itself (so I don’t hang my hat on anything in particular).

In 2015, I pushed on until I had hip surgery (in August) and took a break from running. My body needed it! At the end of 2015, everything improved. My Hashimotos autoimmune antibody test improved, my hormone cycles became more consistent (first time in my life) and my moods improved.

In 2016, I gradually returned to running (first marathon back was August). I was a little older and wiser, and I listened to my body.

In 2017, I have pushed the boundaries with running 4 ultras and 2 marathons in 6 months. I maintained 60km per week. And I’ve enlisted ongoing help of allied health professionals. Prior to GOR 60km, I had blood tests because I was concerned I was bordering on over-training (for me). Majority came back as perfectly normal. 

Now… I’m having an imperfect moment! 

I’m struggling… lack of energy, motivation, hormone imbalance, sudden weight gain (which is a whole other can of worms), depression, aches and pains, new injury, digestive issues etc. I’m seeing my Naturopath (who suspects thyroid again) and other allied health professionals as needed. Rationally, I know I’ll be OK. I need rest and recovery. But I’m feeling fragile and a little lost (emotionally and spiritually). That is all I wanted to say.

*If anyone can relate or would like to share their challenges too, I'm open to listen and non-judgmental.